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I feel like a completely different person. Actually, I think it’s that I feel more like myself than I have for a very long time. I feel hopeful, and there was a point when I had given up on that.
I’m not even sure how to put into words the amazing changes that have taken place since beginning the Vital Mind Reset program. I feel worlds away from where I was at the beginning of those 44 days. My friends hardly even recognize me, and it’s more than just the physical changes (significant weight loss, clearer complexion, brighter eyes). My energy levels are through the roof. I get comments all the time about the positivity that seems to radiate from my core. My smile is genuine and from the heart now. There is no disconnect between how I feel and how I present myself to the world. I am confident in my skin and in my life. I am able to be a better friend to my friends, and I actually have a date tomorrow (my first in many years).
I think for the longest time I bought into the idea that I was broken and sick. I thought my life would have to be limited because I wouldn’t be able to handle the things that would make me feel fulfilled. I realize now that my life can be whatever I want it to be, and the possibilities are endless. I’m not broken, and I’m no longer afraid about what the future holds for me. I feel like I finally understand what true vitality is. And even with all these changes so far, as I continue to work on things and utilize the different healing modalities present in the program I continue to be amazed at the directions I am heading. I never believed it was possible to feel like this…to be free from depression and be in touch with who I really am. To be standing on the edge of a cliff, but ready to fly instead of fall.
Thank you, Dr. Brogan, for giving me the tools I needed to start living my life.
The VMR process has proven to me that I CAN set an intention for the well being of myself in mind, commit to it fully and meet the goal. There were so many things I anted to implement into my life and way of living, and the VMR package helped me actually “do it”. No more wishing, it was just done, because I was committed. The power in this group is strong. Thanks you Shauna Jones for your support too.
I realized two things today…
1. For almost two years now I sporadically break out with little raised red bumps on my face… more like hives than pimples. This hasn’t happened in a week for the first time ever… and my skin is glowing.
2. Tonight I read seven chapters of a book! I used to love to read. I’d read at least a book a week when I was younger, but haven’t been able to read for any length of time for YEARS!! I just couldn’t focus my attention long enough. I had trouble with comprehension and retention and would become very anxious when I read. Tonight it was a breeze!
The only thing different in my life is this program and diet so I really feel there is a correlation which is amazing!
I’ve realized that I have much more self-control and power than I thought before the reset. While I’m still making my way through the program, I have accomplished over 40 days on the diet and am thrilled with my commitment to self-care and self-love.
Here is the truth… Kelly’s final blessing upon the travelers on Vital Mind Reset was so tenderly delivered and sincere…
acknowledging the true depth of accomplishment for the commitment to the program— and sincerely offered words to help in the complexities of the journey….From this new start, forward.
I tell you that I have gone through all these steps through the 44 days, with the normal, real-life interruptions. But I kept on. Learning to relax, understanding the importance of taking time for myself daily and some of the mindful meditative practices and learning to fully breathe are magical to my body, health and soul.
Thank you – each and every one of you – on Kelly’s team, all so precious, kind and compassionate. I have seen words of interaction on the Facebook page, and absolutely love the threads of conversation there. This is going to do wonderful work offering a Safe Haven for people to come, and start to take baby steps towards control of their health and worlds. It is so important.
You are making Waves, you guys, let me tell you. I love you all
Sending you healing light. You aren’t alone, I have had severe withdrawal symptoms for a while now, it is a process that takes time, like Shauna said. I truly believe you will feel better, probably than you did before you even started taking the medication. I am slowly emerging from a decade or more severe fog and depression from psych meds, and the suffering I’ve gone through to get off of them has been worth it. This is a time for extreme self-care, it’s all about you and your healing right now (and for a while). Coffee enemas have been a huge blessing, and exercise helps me tremendously.Slowing down, meditating and being in nature have been essential for me too. Hang in there, there’s hope and lots of vitality on the other side of this.
So happy for you!!! I can’t believe how productive I have become — I feel like I know my purpose now and don’t have anything in my way stopping me. I’m in charge! It’s a great change I’m on day 26 of the diet and the amount of opportunities that have opened up have been magical. Can’t wait to hear more!!!
On day 22 of VMR and day 5 of the food part… This is the first Thursday in YEARS I mean YEARS I don’t feel so depressed to wake up. I feel so happy and energetic!! It is amazing for only day 5! I feel my energy transforming and raising every moment. Who would have thought this whole time we could help ourselves??? I love that my ultimate happiness came from me and not any therapist or medication. And this is just the beginning!! I just came off of feeling so much anxiety for the last 3 weeks and barely leaving the house to feeling okay being me. I hope you all have a beautiful day! Love n light
This is me! Everything is changing so fast for me!
I’m coming back to the young woman I was, but I have been fighting her since I was 13!
It feels so comfortable and I feel aligned with myself… I can’t find the right words.
It’s like I’m coming home.
I want to cry I’m so happy!
My son, who I was planning to bury in the not too distant future, was, up until Saturday 18th of March, dead inside.
Now he wants to share with everyone how diet can change your life.With the dietary changes, come attitude changes and with attitude changes comes joy, gratitude, and love of life. (his words – he couldn’t form sentences because of his confusion and muddled thoughts) It hasn’t been a week and he’s already taken himself off Clonazepam and Phenergan (extra medication) and wants to go to a forest mini break to look at birds.
This boy was sleeping 13 hours to avoid the voices or up all night tormented. Now he crawls into bed physically exhausted and his alarm is set for 7:45am so he can walk with me and the dog… he wants to make the most of every day. The best thing is, the Dr who wanted to section him on Monday 2nd, he’s now refusing to see her because he’s lost all faith. I’m taking him to see the GP so he can tell her and I’m going to write her a letter and suggest further reading for her and her boss!!!!!! xx
I am very grateful for being able to get rid of all psychiatric medication for the first time in 10 years! I thought this would never happen! I thought I would never again be able to sleep a whole night without some type of medication. But now for 1 week, I am not taking any medication and I am sleeping very well! I couldn’t be more thankful for Kelly Brogran, Shauna Jones and this group!
PS Part of the reason I picked this picture to post with this is because this is how the Reset has made me feel figuratively and literally–like these sort of scales on my skin have been peeling away to reveal something beneath that was always there but covered, carefully forgotten, misplaced, but now I am starting to see again. Also, in the literal sense, I don’t think my skin has ever felt this soft. 🙂 Thanks for the platform
When I started this journey I was terrified. l was a doubter. Now, here I am. Day 23 of the diet. And… I see light at the end of the tunnel. Between yesterday and today, I actually functioned without anxiety. NONE. Just last week I couldn‘t go even one hour without anxiousness or brain fog. I was depersonalized and disconnected day in and day out. Today… I cried for JOY. Joy – an emotion that has been absent as I have only been living my life by trying to “SURVIVE each day.” I listened to music and danced. I got in my car and drove around my neighborhood after not driving for 5 weeks. I took my time shopping at Target, instead of trying to rush through and escape back to the safety of my home. I feel peace. My father told me I have an aura around my face. I ran into an old friend who hasn’t even known what I‘ve been going through and the first thing she said to me was “you look amazing!” I finally feel the puzzle pieces of me falling back into place. I am so grateful for today! I am so grateful for stumbling upon Kelly Brogan on a podcast! This is working!
I’ve noticed something different. I’m enjoying little moments of life here and there. Yesterday it was the fluffy white clouds dancing across the bright blue sky, and I felt joyful and happy to see it. This morning, when I stepped out the shower, the towel felt so delightful against my skin and I marveled that I could even feel the texture let alone enjoy it. After months and years of darkness, joy does come in the morning. 🙂
I am so grateful for Dr. Kelly Brogan, this is exactly the combination of lifestyle cleaning I needed to get back to my inner healer. Prior to finding Dr. Kelly Brogan I was reading so many books to try to get all the information straight. This is the first program I have ever known of that combines ALL of the aspects of health into one program. Thank you, Kelly! You are waking me up!!!
My roller-coaster life as a wife, mother of 2 and a quadruple boarded physician came to a shattering, sudden halt 7 years ago when I was diagnosed with multiple myeloma at 43 years old. Initially, of course – I totally entrusted my life to my oncologists (thank God they were there when I needed them). But, subsequently, I embarked upon my own searching for the truth and my life’s purpose and realized, that I no longer wanted to practice the medicine I was trained in. My education provided a great backdrop for which I am training myself as a healer. In the meantime, I no longer ‘fight’ my cancer, rather I have made peace with it. It is here for a purpose and will leave when that is achieved and I am truly grateful! I believe that it is
my mission to help other people achieve their life’s purpose by being able to live to their fullest potential through mental clarity, physical health, and joy in their life. And this course, Dr. Brogan is just what I needed towards that goal. I thank you so much for your valuable lessons. I had much of the same insights but to see them in words that I am able to comprehend – Thank you!
I have a question for everyone in the group. I would love to hear one thing you have discovered about yourself through VMR. Even if you only just started, what have you learned about yourself through deciding to sign up for the course? If you’re further along, what knowledge have you gained on this journey to discover your truest self?
I’m actually working through VMR a second time, and am noticing a lot of things I didn’t before. Maybe some of these aspects of myself have had more time to develop. The one thing that’s become very obvious is that my confidence level is through the roof. I can be outgoing, but I can also be a bit timid. But now I’m finding that situations that used to trigger that shyness don’t really affect me the same way. It’s changed my comfort level when I’m in social situations, it’s made it easier for me to communicate with people, and I think it must explain why guys seem to be coming out of the woodworks to flirt with me lol.
So the assignment today (day 32) was to post the most surprising thing we’ve learned in the VMR program. I honestly think I’ve had quite a few aha moments, but today the most surprising thing for me is just how fantastic I feel. I know a lot of us hit a wall recently, and I hope everyone else is on the upswing too.
I had to walk to the place I volunteer the past few days because we have the Mountain Festival going on in town. It used to take me at least 40 minutes each way because it’s
(literally) up two hills each way. Well now, it takes me half that! I can only assume it’s from the diet and this program because heaven knows I haven’t exactly stepped up my
exercise routine lol. I got so many compliments on how I was looking too. One person said my face didn’t look puffy (I had no idea I looked puffy!). And I’ve visibly lost weight (not why I’m doing this, but it tells me I’m addressing something that needed attention). My energy level is up…way up. I feel a sense of calm and have much more patience than I did before. I’m absolutely amazed with the transformation. And the program isn’t even over yet! I’m so grateful that I’ve had the opportunity to take part in this. I’m learning so much from VMR, and from everyone who has been posting in this group. I’m looking forward to hearing how everyone else is doing.
I saw my therapist this morning, and guess what? She’s on Day 2 of the reset diet! I had no idea she was going to try it. I used to forward articles Dr. Brogan had written to her, and she bought A Mind of Your Own after I recommended it. Then she recommended it to her sister…and her sister is 3 weeks into her reset! I know some of us have been talking about how we want to make changes in the world. I guess sometimes all it takes is lighting that spark…then watching it spread. 🙂
One thing the reset will help with is it will give you a very clear idea of how these foods affect you. This is a wonderful learning experience and some of the outcomes may actually surprise you. After the 28 days, we all get to tailor our diets to meet our individual needs. I don’t think anyone’s diet will look exactly the same. It’s worth giving yourself this opportunity.
Since beginning VMR, I realize that I have a lot more self-control around eating than I thought. I was worried about giving up dairy, caffeine, sugar, and alcohol (all things I love and were an integral part of my daily life), but I have not had any trouble sticking to the diet (except for a little craving for chocolate, but the sweet treats took care of that). Going gluten-free over 10 years ago was very difficult and took a long time to get to 100% gf (I feel for those tackling it as part of VMR). It felt like such a sacrifice and I do not like standing out as “different” when eating with friends, but knowing how it makes me feel has been the incentive to keep it out of my system all of these years. I do feel lighter and calmer on VMR so I guess that is what helps make it easier. I thought I would be counting the days, but I finished the 28 days yesterday, and have no great plan to go back to any of those foods groups. Socializing around food/drink is a big part of my social life, so it will still be an adjustment, but I feel confident that I will do what’s best for my body, and I won’t beat myself up if I stray now and then. Next big challenge: start tapering from Wellbutrin.
Hi all, one week into the diet and one week without coffee! I am finding it surprisingly easy (despite the initial 2-day headache from the caffeine withdrawal) and am now feeling great. I had already been following a pretty similar diet but I had still been eating dairy and coffee. So the change has not been huge for me but gosh cutting out those two things has made a big difference. I am starting to feel clearer in my body and my mind. My eyes are looking brighter and I am waking up in the morning with more energy. I absolutely love the meditation from the first week (the one above removing fear) so much so that I am still doing it every day, sometimes I do it at work at my desk to make me feel safe. The breath meditation that from last week was challenging, suspending the breath on the out-breath is always difficult and I needed to do some chanting beforehand to really open up my lungs to hold the breath. I hope everyone is doing well.
Funny experience today that shows that your body knows once you give it time to reset. I am on day 2 of a bad cold and thinking of what to eat. I was craving yogurt (non-dairy, no sugar) and thought I would make a mushroom omelet, something I don’t think I have ever made. Then I read this afternoon that yogurt, mushrooms, eggs, and yams are some of the best ways to shorten a cold’s length. So, I just need to make a yam and I should kick this thing quick! So cool my body was craving all that.
Day 32 activity: Share the most surprising thing you’ve learned in the VMR program, to date.
So, very happy to share with the VMR tribe that I:
- love cooking (mid-30s and never truly cooked; the connection to food it creates and mindfulness of what enters the body is profound)
- feel better than I have in well over a decade
- do not foresee the dietary changes being temporary (I already don‘t crave for candy, ice cream, pizza, and all of the other foods that I would feel powerless to when confronting)
Be well community – wishing everyone the best in their reset/recovery/growth/restoration.
If I can do this diet after being so scared of it, ANYONE can eat VMR approved foods. My husband is loving everything about VMR these days. He can’t believe the extent to which he’s gotten back his wife! My hope in posting about food is that everyone will know that the diet is totally doable. Please let me know if you have any questions or concerns or if you notice anything that shouldn’t be on the diet!
I can’t believe how scared I was of this diet (and I do mean scared) but it’s been so much fun so far. Fun! Real fun! I FOR SURE can tell that my body and migraines are responding positively. Something is going very right because I am myself again for the first time in such a very long time.
Dr. Brogan presents this in summary form after you complete the reset.In reviewing everything carefully, I’ve determined that I am probably a “Moderate Carnivore,” This diet really focuses on eating a lot of meat.
Looking back on when I really was overcome with depression and anxiety was when I went to being a vegan. Clearly, my autonomic nervous system wasn’t being nourished. Even on the reset diet, I wasn’t feeling great every day. I think back on what I was eating following reset guidelines everything fine but not in line with the Moderate Carnivore diet. I was eating a lot of fish and chicken, some red meat. Moderate carnivore is supposed to eat red meat (actually beef, lamb, pork) at least 2 times a day! Also only 3-4 eggs PER WEEK! I was having 5 per day, 3 in smoothie and 2 others for snack.
So I am doing the Moderate Carnivore and so far I’m really having success. I’ve had problems with insomnia–going to sleep but waking up during the night. I’ve now been tracking this to eating foods, even LIMITED AMOUNTS, to having really bad insomnia. For example, I ate an ear of corn. Bad insomnia. Yesterday I ate red meat for all three meals. And guess what, I slept all through the night–first time in forever. For now, I’m going to stick to this Moderate Carnivore diet and see where it takes me. If you haven’t considered this yet, I would take a look at it and see whether it works for you. Thank you, Dr. Gonazalez and Dr. Brogan!!!!!
I officially started the diet this week. I have to admit that I was apprehensive to give up so much “food,” but enough migraines are enough migraines, and I went for it. I was scared, and I didn’t know if I could do it. The first day wasn’t hard; my husband happily cooked all of the meals (I was too sick to get out of bed) and is an active participant. The second day, I was out of bed. I thought it must be flukey, but that rarely happens. Then the third day I was out of bed and outside – we planted an herb garden, some vegetables. The fourth day we went to a family rehearsal dinner. This is the fifth day, and I woke up this morning bright-eyed, not in a fog. I haven’t had this many good days in a row in over a year and a half. And I’ve been confined to bed in my darkened bedroom for most days since last summer.
Y’all, this is AMAZING. I feel every day like more layers of fog are lifting. I told my husband last night that it’s as if I can process thoughts more easily; I can THINK again! I’m not tense. I’m not agitated. I’m calm. I can’t believe this so far. And I should never have been scared to do the diet. It’s been so much fun, we’ve only had delicious food (even my children are loving it!), and I’m just completely amazed. Right now, I don’t have pain that I’ve had chronically for years. Can this be real? I haven’t even yet begun the CEs!
I’m posting about the activity of the most surprising thing I’ve learned. There are a few
1. raw honey is not the devil
2. I’m not quite sure what the difference is this time. I’ve eaten clean for years. I’ve been on inflammation, paleo, SIBO protocols and haven’t felt this good
With the guidance of a suggested 2-week meal plan vs just foods to eat or not to eat. It is amazing how much better I feel. I’ve ditched almost all my supplements but one. I’m still on my thyroid meds. I’ve been using a netti pot for about 15 years religiously every morning as I’m so congested I can’t breathe. My brain fog & fatigue from a bad meal can be debilitating for a few days following. I feel sharp and clear. My traveling eating set me back for only a day. I’m convinced that the meditations play a big part as well.
3. I’m not a big facebook person, but this time, I jumped in. The power of group and community is huge Thx to KB, admin & all of the group
I am truly thankful for you and your work Kelly Brogan, that while I knew of you last year at this time, the publication of your book and launch of the VMR this year have put me miles, I mean Miles!, away from where I was last year at this time, and never to return! Thank you, thank you, thank you!! I’m guessing most of us will be in similar situations today that will challenge our new skills and knowledge, and also with the upcoming holidays. But since I’ve taken to eating veggies and meat for breakfast these days, I know I’m good with those choices for today’s holiday meal, too. Plus, I finally made a mind shift – “I’m not giving up (fill in the blank of all the food full of gluten, sugar, dairy); I’m giving up being depressed, giving up brain fog, giving up being prisoner in my own mind and body. I’m not giving up food; I’m giving up pain.” I found this reframing to be more compelling for me. I’m making choices every day for health, and to maintain this vital mind that I’m working long & hard to regain and heal. I’ve also done enough food transgressions (just checking it out that I really can’t eat certain foods, lol) to know that today when someone offers me stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy with flour in it, cranberries loaded with sugar, or pie(s), that I will confidently and knowingly think inside “That’s not good for my brain!!” & smile sweetly saying “no, thank you, I’m fine.” I’ve also learned to make eye contact with the person offering when I say No, and for some reason, they believe me and don’t push. I am also going to dinner with a dish of sweet potatoes to share (a recipe I can have with ghee). And finally, I’m going to feast on the fellowship of people I love and who love me, joining our part of the continuum. I think this year I’m going to just sit back and drink them all in. Yes, a vital mind feast! Happy Thanksgiving to all resetters, wherever you are!!
Wow. Ok so…coffee enemas. I tried them for the first time today and have to admit that I’m sold. I’m not sure why I ever bothered drinking the stuff when this is possible lol. It wasn’t nearly as complicated as I thought, and things went pretty smoothly. And I actually noticed an immediate decrease in some of my symptoms. I was concerned about the caffeine because I’ve been experiencing higher than normal anxiety. I didn’t want it to make me jittery. However I actually feel calmer now than before I did it, even though my energy level is up a bit. I really wish I hadn’t put this off for so long, but I’m excited to see such positive results after just one go. I really encourage everyone to give this a try and see how they feel.
To coffee enema procrastinators: I was you and I totally get it. Just the thought of it is, well, gross and disgusting. I completed the 44 days during which I got my kit from Gerson but found a million reasons to avoid and delay. Finally last week I was brought to my knees by a migraine that lasted 3 days! So I did the enema which relieved the migraine 100 percent by the time I was done! Also, it did not hurt; I had no discomfort; could barely feel the red tube. I also felt incredibly light and my system was flooded with chi flowing. It was so energizing in a gently stimulating and uplifting way. Please do not hesitate to try this treatment!!!
I’m really enjoying the lessons for this week, starting at Day 17 – guess I’m also a ‘Clean Living Crusader’ at heart (love that term – might need to adopt it!) While I’ve already incorporated much of this into my life, there’s always room for improvement! Next up for me: a new mattress (hopefully sometime this year) & getting away from foam-filled furniture that’s been treated with flame retardants. The latter, of course, is on an ‘as needed’ basis, i.e. it’s not about immediately getting rid of your sofa, etc. but rather having an awareness of your exposures & keeping this in mind the next time you’re out shopping. 🙂 Dr. Brogan has done such an excellent job in breaking this all down for us & the recipes are an awesome touch – thank you!
My entire life has been about “yielding my rights,” and VMR has allowed me to see self-care in a positive, appropriate light. I am astonished at how powerful the kundalini yoga/meditations are! Every time I sit down for the 3 minutes, I think “This isn’t going to do anything. This is so hokey,” and 3 minutes, 15 seconds later, my soul is so much lighter. Like how does this work so well?!? How is it so incredibly effective? And keeping fresh flowers/ plants in my room and office? Game changer!
It is amazing how helpful the meditation of module 2-2 is for me!! I have a severe kyphosis of my spine, caused by not feeling safe as a child I think, but also causing deep emotional insecurity (feelings of not being beautiful and lovable) and physical discomfort: back pain, very shallow breathing. I had physiotherapy and chiropractic therapy for years. But this simple exercise is soooo helpful! When I do it in the morning, my body remembers it the whole day while sitting standing or walking. Shoulders relaxing, spine straightening, breath deepening… Incredible, such a simple exercise! My wonderful body, I’m very grateful.
I realized this morning my striving to change has been keeping me from my full healing….striving to change veers me away from what I am and my truest expressions.
I keep sending signals to my body – I am not ok…I need to be different…this doesn’t work….and that‘s why I obsessively self monitor – I feel as if there’s something I need to change.
Truth is – right here is good. Anxiety and thoughts I judge as bad (thoughts I blame myself for) all included.
Striving to change and be different perpetuates the anxiety and the annoying thoughts. I have the incessant thinking because I believe I’m not okay and the mind is trying to figure it out like a math problem.
I think the way we feel about our mental challenge can be the very thing that perpetuates it.
Changing our thoughts about it will not do. You’ve got to go deeper than that I think and examine the belief that resides inside your body. It is this belief in the body that triggers the thoughts into the mind.
A little milestone for me today, I took my last anti-depressant…yippee! I’ve been tapering off for about a year, it’s been really really wobbly with some proper scary moments. However I got there, I’m looking forward to managing my mental health through good food, sleep, meditation, yoga, therapy, lots of beach walks and with a great support network around me. I’m lucky to have a boyfriend and lots of friends that try to understand what’s going on for me, but mainly you guys. Thanks for the support, I do really appreciate it, this group, being able to speak openly it’s so encouraging and inspiring. Also a special mention to Scott for your long and caring emails, they were a tremendous help, even if they didn’t seem like I appreciated them at the time! Happy weekend people x
Today I would really like to express how thankful I am for this group. For the broken parts of me that guided me here, for the love shown here. I’m someone who doesn‘t really seem to fit in almost anywhere. And maybe I don‘t really fit in here completely either (we are all from different backgrounds with different beliefs), but you made me feel like I do fit in here and I am so grateful for your support and help even if I have different beliefs. You made me feel free to open up and share things with all of you, to grow alongside you and to share in this deep experience with you. A special thanks to Shauna Jones. My heart goes out to you often for all you do and for big beautiful heart that you do it with. I pray for nothing but the best for you and for everyone in this group.
I just want to take a second to say how unbelievably grateful I am to have found this program and this group of amazing people. I really didn’t know what to expect, but I truly have faith that I am going to get better now. I already feel more supported than I have in a really long time (if ever). Thank you Dr. Brogan!
I have discovered how important it is for me to connect with others – this FB group has been a massive part of me feeling that I am on the right path with healing. I tend to isolate (emotionally) – which I think is a shame thing… getting more insights into this day by day. Thank you Shauna and the VMR tribe.
First a disclaimer – I have never dealt with major depression, nor do I have a history in my family & no experience with psychotropic drugs. Thank goodness for that! So I may not be a typical client, as far as the type of patients Dr. Brogan normally works with. Just wanted to say that up front….:)
I’ve been following Dr. Brogan for a while, but it was only earlier this year that I started reading her newsletter religiously & clinging to every word. Her writing resonates for me because I know it to be true. I’d previously gone through extensive training in the realm of functional nutrition & for that reason – the more I read of Dr. Brogan’s brilliant articles & the more I learned of her Vital Mind Reset program, I couldn’t wait to sign up & learn even more!
As an Environmental & Digestive Health Specialist, & Certified Gluten Practitioner, Dr. Brogan’s approach really speaks to me, because I know how important it is to address dietary change, exposure to environmental toxins & lifestyle practices related to sleep, stress & more.
In regards to my own healing & personal challenges with digestive issues, the one area I had yet to explore was mindset.
As much as I knew & understood this to be another critical piece that needs to be addressed – I had not been successful in starting a meditation practice. Like many, I found it too hard to sit still for an extended period of time & focus on my thoughts. (Plus, who has the time?) My experience with VMR has been amazing & the tribe of followers who’ve joined the Facebook group are an incredible source of energy, support & knowledge.
I am so impressed with the way Dr. Brogan laid out the program – especially the building of a solid foundation in Weeks 1 & 2, in preparation for what’s to come. The gentle start gives one plenty of time to take in the information she’s sharing & warm up to her philosophy, since mindset is really so important.
I found the daily 3-minute meditations easy to implement, with a new one introduced every week; two months later, I’m now up to 18 minutes a day something I wouldn’t have dreamed of a year ago.
The dietary portion of her program has also been fascinating for me, in an unexpected way. I’d already been gluten, dairy & sugar-free for many years but the one change I needed to make was increasing my consumption of animal protein. I was especially curious about the effect of food on the autonomic nervous system, as I was familiar with the work of Dr.Gonzalez & very intrigued. I feel I now have a much better understanding of my body & am able to tune into to how different foods & other stressors are either stimulating or calming for me – a truly unexpected bonus & a welcome surprise.
I highly recommend the Vital Mind Reset program for anyone who’s struggling & ready to reclaim their vibrancy & their health!
One of the benefits of this program is that once you reset you really have the opportunity to tailor your life to what you personally need. It was so much easier for me to begin to figure out what was working for me once I had a baseline to work from. And it really was the whole package that helped me… diet, detox, meditation. I had to remind myself to be patient along the way but it really paid off.
After completing the first month of the vital mind reset, meditating daily (this was huge) and drinking plenty of water (also huge), I have my first virtually symptom free period of my life. I’ve always been curled into a ball, horrible cramps, chills/shakes, moody crying, layering pain medication otherwise I would get so ill I would literally throw up. Keep going, it will get better.
Hello all! I have been working through Dr. Brogan’s VMR program since hearing her on the Joe Rogan Experience. I can sleep for the first time In years. Thanks for Dr. Brogan and all of you for growing this VMR protocol. The benefits and the process Itself are profound.
I was suffering from terrible hives last year, my eyes would swell shut, covered in welts, no relief from cortisone cream. It was pretty bleak, and I totally feel your pain. But it started to clear after cutting out gluten and dairy last year, and I’ve been totally hive free since starting VMR 2 months ago. So as much as it sucks right now, stick with VMR, continue to heal yourself, this stuff works. Your body is speaking to you. You can do this xx
So here is my share: Before beginning VMR, I pretty much ate like we are being encouraged to do, my cleaning products were culled years ago, as were my personal care products, we drink clean water and I had done a lot of my own personal healing work via homeopathy, shamanism, osteopathy, therapy. I joined because I have anxiety from time to time and my energy wasn’t what I thought it should be, and I know that my hormones need some balancing. And I wasn’t always pooping every day (sorry if that’s TMI).
Since beginning VMR, I am pooping like a gold medalist!! And the piece that I believe is making the difference is the daily meditations. That’s really the only new thing for me. I adore those 3-5 minutes and look forward to them.
When I tune in, I feel like my nervous system is getting a much-needed reset, a calming and – well – a big huge hug! I am so grateful for these meditations! It’s amazing to me how something that seems so simple is anything but. So powerful and healing. So much gratitude!
Hi all, I am at the halfway mark and wanted to post since I’m the skeptic of all skeptics. I have not been weighing and measuring my food like I have in the past, but rather listening to my body and eating what I feel I need in the moment. I’ve stuck to the list of foods to embrace and have really resisted the urge to grab coffee. That’s the one thing I miss so much. Cravings have gone WAY down. Water intake has gone WAY up. Even with my husband away for work for the week and me stressing a lot I haven‘t run to junk food or alcohol to cope. l swig my water and get to whatever I need to do.
I‘m down 7.5lbs without even focusing on weight loss. The biggest change has come with my cycle (sorry if this gets to be TMI). Mood swings were less aggressive than usual and I had essentially no cramping when I usually feel like my ovaries are trying to kill me from the inside. The heavy days reduced from 3 to 1.5 making the rest of the days more manageable.
I gotta say, I feel pretty damn good right now. Even after a false start and a rocky restart 2 weeks ago.
Same, I’ve been through all the allergy tests, dust is a big one for me, and pets (I was really worried for a while that it was my dog causing it). And while I don’t think it was a gluten or dairy allergy causing my reaction, it was worsened because of the distress my body was in as a whole. But all of the healing work I have been doing, including the diet and the detox that goes along with it, plus the meditation have brought such amazing relief. This was one of those happy side effects of the process. I started the work to overcome my depression, but more and more I am understanding that mind and body are totally connected, as my mood improves so do all my other random symptoms. I really hope you find the same, be kind to yourself and know that this passes xx
I was lost in thought last night while I was getting ready for bed, mulling over a few things medical and financial and my mind settled on the Dr. that misdiagnosed me and prescribed me first antidepressants, and then benzodiazepines, and then incorrectly tapered me off both. I’ve been angry with her for some time but last night the only emotion that came up was an intense and deep rush of gratitude for my experience with her and my entire withdrawal experience. I thought, of course I needed that Dr. in my life, I needed that withdrawal experience and rebirth in my life! Where would I be now without that? Would I understand love and food and meditation and self-compassion, my body, my soul’s desire, self-care, my own power and the deep and true meaning of life without that experience? Absolutely not. I even poked around a little in my emotions after that deep rush of gratitude, expecting the anger or resentment to be buried behind it but nope, nothin’. Just intense gratitude for the death and rebirth that I experienced. I truly wouldn’t give it up for anything. I would never have been reborn to such a beautiful place without Dr. Brogan’s work and the lovely folks here in the reset. So for that, I am even more grateful
My psychiatrist deleted my bipolar disorder diagnosis from my medical record today. I saw him today for a routine appointment. I’ve really only seen him the last few times because I need medical documentation until I get off of disability. Last time he said I was making him obsolete since I’m not on meds and doing well, although he wasn’t upset about it. Turns out he’s actually leaving the clinic I’ve been seeing him at and so this was unexpectedly my last appointment with him. He’s always been fairly openminded (for a conventional pdoc), and I sent him a bunch of KB articles before seeing him today. It was my intention to finally open up to him about how I’m seeing things now and how my beliefs have changed over the last year. We actually had a really good discussion about root cause resolution, and he really recognizes that has been key for me. It was his idea to remove the diagnosis. I had already rejected the label myself, but I realize after leaving there that this really feels empowering. And I’m not going to have to try and explain this diagnosis to any doctor I see in the future. It’s like the slate has been wiped clean. I really couldn’t have asked for a better last appointment with him. We also agreed there was no sense in referring me to another psychiatrist, and my primary care can provide any of the documentation I need. I still see a therapist (who is a huge KB fan), but it looks like I’m done with the conventional mental health system. On to bigger and better things I suppose.
Today marks exactly one year off of psych medications. I made it through one year and I’m still standing! This Is probably the longest I have gone without being on medication In 20 years from what I remember. This program and community played a huge role in that. Thank you all so much for being incredibly supportive and helping me on my journey.
Hi VMRs, I’ve been responding but I haven’t introduced myself properly so it’s about time Firstly I want to say the level of support, love and thoughtful advice that is shared on this forum is truly incredible. How rare it is for many of us to be able to share of ourselves so openly and honestly knowing that we will be accepted. Thank you to all My story is like many of us… a concoction of drugs for 20 years and depressive episodes that were getting worse and closer together. I was at the brink of complete desperation when I found Dr. Brogan’s book last year. It gave me the confidence to start managing my tapering. Thank you Dr. Brogan! The process took 12 months but as of 7 April this year I am completely drug-free! I could burst into tears as I write that publicly! Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could do it…I was brought up believing that I was damaged goods and if I stopped taking a pill my world would completely crumble…l haven’t crumbled. I‘ve grown. I’ve tapped into a strength that was within me all along, I just lost touch with it. Have I got a long way to go? Yeah I do but I’m getting there slowly and the commitment to VMR is another step. So pleased to be here with you all. Xxx
Eileen, our hearts go out to you. It is extremely common to experience withdrawals coming off these kinds of medication. Considering you were on Effexor for 25 years, it would be unusual if you didn’t have a reaction to coming off of it. These symptoms are often worse around the 2-month mark, and can even include symptoms you did not have before this time. You are doing such an amazing job taking care of yourself right now. Committing to the VMR principles with everything else you are doing will help you get through this. This is a process that will take some time, but that does not mean you won’t start to see some improvement. Coffee enemas can be an extremely useful tool when dealing with withdrawals, so they are worth looking into if you haven’t tried them. Have you had a chance to look at the Medication Tapers module in VMR? You might find some useful information and encouragement there. One of the interviews is with Will Hall, and he has a free download about tapering off medications. That might be a good resource for you too. Please reach out any time. We will help remind you how incredible you are and that these feelings will not last. This is your body recalibrating and healing.
Hi Jane. My son, also 20, has been on a HUGE journey with the VMR. We finished in March. It was my last ditch attempt before we looked at assisted suicide in Switzerland. I begged the Drs to give me a month before they upped his antidepressants again. (he was misdiagnosed) and was also on 3 heavy antipsychotics, epilepsy meds (Epilepsy from the antipsychotics), Clonazepam (Klonopin) propranolol and another ‘extra’ medication. He was too scared by his command hallucinations, voices and all other sensory hallucinations to leave his room (voices were screaming at him to kill me and torture neighbors etc). He couldn’t speak because of the sedation and the disorganized thought. It has been a month today when he first started coming out in the car. We’ve been on a mini-break to a forest, he is studying to get his license, he’s off all extra meds including Klonopin. He’s speeding through his tapering, (it’s me putting the breaks on) he’s given up smoking and going to the gym tomorrow. What I’m trying to say, Jane, that if my son can make such huge inroads, anything is possible!!!! Our brains have enormous plasticity and resilience (especially when they are so young). As Brenda said to me, when I joined, what an amazing gift you are giving to your son! Word of warning, I’m assuming you are going to do it with him? I did this ALL for him but it has totally transformed me and actually became about me too! I’m finding myself again and I can’t begin to tell you how nice it is. I had lost myself for many many years! And also my son now doesn’t stop talking. Always out, gabbing to the neighbors, bursting with life and vitality. Good luck and we are all here to support you. Xx
Thank you Kelly Brogan and Shauna Jones and all the others especially in the Beta group who have shared their experiences and support. I joined as a beta member last year and I was in a dark place. I was 6 months out of a 14 year on-off cycle of SSRIs, I had horrific insomnia, I was unemployed as I couldn’t hold down my job due to the insomnia and mood swings, had such bad pms I would feel suicidal, was relying on my partner to support me financially and he was sick and tired of me. This programme has changed my life, I have wanted to share for a long time the incredible turn around I have had but I kept worrying oh maybe I’m not quite there yet and of course it’s a process but in summary: I can sleep, I’m fitter than I’ve ever been, I’m working full time in a job with a good enough salary that I have been able to buy my own flat in London, I finally have energy and feel excited about life again, I have moments of feeling just absolute joy about being alive on this planet. I wake up every morning and set my yoga mat out overlooking the trees from my balcony at 6am to do kundalini meditation and give thanks for this new start in my life! And I do still have bad days too, but I know that it’s all part of this human experience and they pass quicker than they used to. I am writing this in case anyone here is reading and thinking that this programme won’t work for me, or I can’t do it, or maybe I will be the one who doesn’t get better.. because I thought all of these things and they do pass! I am so thankful for the support of this group in helping me to see this. Kelly and Shauna and the others who offer your experiences and support, you have saved my life. I start Kundalini yoga teacher training at the end of this month and I hope I will start to be able to offer others support on their journey as I have received here. Thank you for everything.
My libido has come back full force after being gone for about two decades. Also, I really feel like my brain is starting to heal. I’m 18 months off of benzos, and a little over a month off of gabapentin, and I can honestly say, for the first time since I can remember, I love life. This program has been essential and a gigantic part of my healing journey to health and happiness. Thanks, everyone, especially Dr. Kelly Brogan.
Two months ago I sat in my psychiatrist’s office, crying tears of frustration, and was handed yet another prescription. A prescription for medication I could foretell my body would fight before it would inadequately relieve my debilitating depression and anxiety. A pill that would inevitably send me back to the Dr. hoping the next prescription would be the cure. In my heart, I knew I couldn’t endure the medication cycle any longer. I’m so thankful for Kelly Brogran, the VMR and for this group of courageous health seekers! Ten days in and I can already feel the benefits of daily meditation. I am hopeful and excited. Joy is slowly creeping back into my life!
Okay… update.. I’ve been following your protocol for 4+ weeks… No sugar, alcohol, gluten, dairy, sleeping pills.. nothing!!! And I feel amazing. I have lost weight and I am sleeping better than I can ever remember. The craziest thing, I just got my period, and for the first time in years, I didn’t have any of the usual cramps and discomfort. I’m guessing it’s because I have less inflammation in my body, yes? Anyway, just wanted to share the good news.
Excellent read. Excellent advice. Excellent plan. She is easy to grasp yet grounded in science. I was already using her dietary /lifestyle recommendations to assist in managing a neurological disease but was interested in what she had to say about depression. I can personally attest to the fact that the program she recommends actually works. If you’re not willing to make huge changes and truly commit yourself to a lifestyle and a diet that promotes vitality and happiness, don’t bother reading. When you’re ready, get the book, read it, trust the information, trust the science, trust the experience, and then love yourself enough to put the work in and you will reap benefits you didn’t even know were possible. It’s not a miracle pill, it’s real life. Good luck!
This book should be required reading for anyone considering starting antidepressants or anti-anxiety medicine….and for that matter, ANY prescription drug. Dr. Brogan, who is one of the most highly educated and brilliant psychiatrists of our time, blows the lid off of the false promises that are propagated by the pharmaceutical industry. She explains that, as it relates to depression and anxiety, what we’ve been “told and sold” about mood-altering medications is that they aren’t actually proven to work any better than placebo! She cites all of her sources and lays out the evidence-based truth about treating depression. The book is laid out well, and it’s captivating…you’ll find it difficult to put down! Read this with an open mind, as it’s going to rock your world if you’ve succumbed to the lies and stories told by the entire medical industry. Her dietary recommendations seem extreme at first, but I think anyone who has already begun to pay close attention to what they eat will find it easy to follow. I haven’t tried any of her recipes, but I would recommend anyone who is undertaking these changes picks up some cookbooks that are dairy and grain free… it will make the transition a lot easier. It’s easy to be overwhelmed if this information is new to you….just take it one day at a time and slowly start making changes. Once you know better, you’ll do better!
Fantastic resource for eating and living in a way that helps to heal your body and addresses the causes of depression, while avoiding drugs that don’t really address the root problem and likely cause bigger and longer-term issues with your health. Dr. Brogan is a no-nonsense psychiatric practitioner who has left anti-depressants behind and shows you how to assess your health and clean up your act, avoiding as much as possible the toxicants and processed “food” we have all become oblivious to. A couple of caveats: there is a lot of medical/scientific jargon and explanations, but Dr. Brogan does a pretty good job of simplifying the ideas. Also, if you are looking for a quick-fix, or direct guidance on how to come off anti-depressants, those are not included in this book. But, just like in life, there are no true quick fixes and Dr. Brogan presents do-able and achievable goals, and how to get there in a realistic way.
Dr. Brogan deserves a prize for the bravery it must have taken to step outside the box and abandon what she was taught to bring the truth to her readers. I’ve also been following her blog and have seen some of her videos….this is a truly brilliant woman who lives and breathes this information. I know if enough people get their hands on this book, they can be saved from the ravaging effects mood-altering drugs would have on their bodies. This book needs to be read by everyone!
Dear Dr. Brogan,
I wanted to take a moment to submit to your evidence bank more data regarding the efficacy of your dietary/lifestyle recommendations. Let me preface this by saying I was diagnosed bipolar in 2001 after the first and last manic episode I experienced. While the DSM is the DSM, I have long believed I am not bipolar but in fact experienced a spiritual crisis and have fairly concrete evidence that I have been managing early stages of kundalini rising with intermittent dark nights.
That having been said, here is what I have experienced after 30 days gluten, dairy, and sugar-free.
• Anxiety is gone
• No depressive episode
• Sleep, while still erratic, is much more refreshing
• Ditziness down by 30%
• Agoraphobia greatly reduced
• PTSD is seen, regression happens with awareness
• Meditation remains a gift (I am 62….40 years)
• Down 10 lbs (5’9” 176-166)…weight coming from different places
• swollen glands under arm gone
• More flexibility, practicing yoga again
• Walking more
• RADICALLY IMPROVED PAIN (back, thighs, carpal tunnel, “fibromyalgia”)
• Short term memory/recall improved by 30-40%
• Less reactive to events!!
I feel very calm. This was the part I knew I would always have to give myself, but when you are in survival mode (extreme child abuse-17 years therapy), the body, at least for me, was the last piece of the puzzle. My therapist considers my growth and healing miraculous. I was an inventor in life and raised 3 healthy sons who in turn, are amazing husbands and dads. All are creative and compassionate beings. I mention this because true healing is a trinity. You gave me back the third key, physical health. BTW, had fasting blood work last week. Better than average scores on every indicator. Lithium in middle.
I have been taking 600mg of lithium which I would like to look into discontinuing someday as I believe that it is less than a therapeutic dosage and it has many side effects. What I was wondering is, do you take Medicare? I am currently on disability because of bipolar. Someday, I hope to forego disability and resume my place as a productive, self-sufficient, and conscious individual.
Thank you and many blessings for your commitment to revealing and sharing truth and the tools to implement it. You have changed my life.
My wife turned me on to this book which is about treating mental health issues and is focused primarily on women. I am neither a woman nor do I suffer from any mental health disorder. Even so, I found this book to be incredibly revealing and enlightening with regard to personal wellness and health maintenance in general. I believe the principles described within are applicable to anyone wanting to live a long, healthy, happy life.
For reasons you will find obvious after reading just the first chapter of this book, you will never see this book featured or promoted on TV or in the print media.
First of all, this book is the best overview I have read on the impact of the agricultural, pharmaceutical, medical & health industries on our personal health and wellness. While I cannot accurately assess the science described in her book, my personal bias is strongly skewed towards her beliefs. In a nutshell, here are just a few of the important concepts discussed:
– Your body is a remarkable organism which has evolved over millions of years to maintain itself.
– Your body’s primary defense mechanism is your immune system which is a complex combination of hormones, chemicals and microscopic organisms (microbiomes) that is constantly guarding you against assaults from the outside world.
– In recent years (literally in most of our lifetimes) our global pharmaceutical industry has learned to fabricate certain chemicals (drugs) that are designed to treat the symptoms of various maladies.
– While some of these drugs have some limited efficacy in treating their target maladies, they all invariably corrupt the ability of the immune system to do its work; just listen to the disclaimer on the next pharma commercial you see on TV.
– The truth is that no one knows the long-term consequences of taking most of these drugs over a long period of time.
– This is true even for simple drugs like ibuprofen (Advil) and Tylenol but there is now some evidence that taking multiple of the more potent pharmaceutical products has the ability to literally reprogram your body chemistry to an extent that may be difficult to reverse.
– The explosion in the use of these prescription pharmaceuticals is driven first and foremost by corporate greed in the pharmaceutical, health and medical industries.
– Consumption of GMO foods and processed foods, which contain other non-food chemicals, is also responsible for disruptions in our body chemistry immune system efficiency.
Secondly, the book also describes a ‘lifestyle’ regimen of diet and exercise which she claims can re-balance your body chemistry. The bad news is that, like any lifestyle change, it is a difficult protocol and requires significant self-discipline over an extended period of time (like, for the rest of your life). The other bad news is that if you are currently on any of the myriad of prescription pharmaceutical drugs currently available out there, you will likely experience a painful withdrawal as part of that regimen.
I have personally embraced a significant portion of that lifestyle and I believe, in a relatively short period of time, it has dramatically improved my personal wellness. So far, this book has literally changed my life…
Dr. Kelly Brogan may have saved my life when I discovered her work several years ago. Here, she brings together her body of work in this field, to help the many people who suffer from “mental illness” that is really physical illness which can be controlled with diet and supplements. Very few doctors have dared to expose the failure of modern psychiatry and the damage it does to so many patients who trusted in the promise of pharmaceuticals.
I refreshing look into the issue of the mind and it’s connection to the gut health, especially in regard to depression, dementia, schizophrenia, behavioral issues and other degenerative illnesses of the brain. It’s obvious that Dr. Kelly has done a lot of homework on this one where she overturns the medical establishment’s entire approach to these chronic degenerative ailments, which is, of course, to manage symptoms by throwing as many pharmaceutical drugs at it as possible. The book shows how it is possible to reverse many of these conditions without using drugs by changing your diet, proper exercise, and the right supplementation, among other modalities. This is an absolute must-read for anyone with a loved one suffering from any of these symptoms.
Dear Dr. Brogan,
Since I first “met” you on Youtube I knew you were going to change my life. I also knew I could only dream of being your patient as I live in Canada…and I don’t buy lottery tickets…
Just when I thought I had to live with panic and anxiety for the rest of my life…I bought your book. Even though I haven’t finished it yet, I am already following your protocol. The tests and the house detox are going to have to wait for now, but I am loving the diet and exercise program! In only two weeks I noticed:
• I sleep through the night
• No more night sweats
• I don’t wake up with a racing heart and tremors anymore
• I have more energy
• I lost weight
• I am more calm
• My panic/impending doom thoughts are down to a minimum
• My hair stopped falling
• I don’t worry so much
• I’m starting to like myself again
Thank you so much Dr. Brogan! Your book has changed my life!
Great perspective on the simple truths of how to be healthy. We have to take ownership of our own well-being and not fall victim to the “system” of big food manufacturers, big pharma, and outdated myths and practices of traditional medicine. We have the power to be well, and this book outlines how to “thrive” rather than just “survive”. Nature has provided the answers–we just need to listen! I highly recommend this book! Thank you, Kelly Brogan, MD!
This book is why my daughter chose healthy living over anti-depressants for her depression/anxiety. Thank you to the author!
After years of physical and mental illness and steadily deteriorating quality of life – in spite of visits to a plethora of healers and doctors – Dr. Brogan’s depth and breadth of up-to-date scientific knowledge paired her with razor-sharp medical intuition gave me hope and motivation. The changes in lifestyle she suggested have been precise, simple and customized and have allowed me to begin to slowly taper off all synthetic medications and feel hope and aliveness again. I am deeply grateful for nothing less than gaining my life back.
Just a small side note: You saved my life. Period. I would be dead or living a life of death as I was, were it not for you. Never in my wildest dreams did I think even 10 years ago (pre-PTSD traumas and pre-face infection) that I could have the peace that I am experiencing in my life as I am now. Not only am I alive, I FEEL alive. I want to be alive. I am 100% following the diet, coffee enemas once a day and two a day around my period, Kundalini every morning at 4:30 am and I have been talking to Dede Moore twice a week. Something or all things have clicked and I am truly at a loss for words on how to explain what it really feels like and how to thank you for what you have done for me and for my family. I am engaging with the world and also I am not getting “hooked” by triggers and negative energy. I know every day I am still healing but realize how powerful and strong I am to have survived what I did.
Could you also let Dr. Brogan know I have been doing the kundalini protocol she recommended to me in the morning for two days at 5:30 and it has helped immensely. My heart is so full of gratitude for her and while I know I have a lot of healing and work to do for the first time in my life I feel empowered to heal myself and not at the mercy of a doctor or a drug. I am blessed to have found you.
Could you also ask her if there are any kundalini retreats that she is aware of that I could go to? It doesn’t matter where it is. I’d just like to really immerse myself in this and thought a retreat would be a great avenue to get started.
It’s been a little over 3 weeks since we last met, and I wanted to send you an update.
I Started eating red meat daily to address the reactive hypoglycemia. I am feeling so much better! I am a lot less hungry, can fall asleep more easily and stay asleep! (I can’t believe this worked.) I’m less thirsty too. Still thirsty but not as bad as before.
Dear Dr. Brogan,
I am writing to thank you…. To thank you for the influence that you have had on my life, unknowingly, over the past 3 years. I came to you in 2013 in need of help for anxiety amongst other issues and you were able to provide me with the tools that I needed to come off a 20-year roller coaster of multiple medication trials given by multiple physicians. I successfully tapered off Effexor over the course of 1 1/2 years with your guidance and support and have completely changed the direction of my life. I believe that when I saw you last, we spoke briefly about me possibly opening my own practice. I was growing increasingly disheartened working at Rutgers University. I knew that I was not providing my patients the best care in the setting that I was in, so in the fall on 2015, I took the leap and opened my private Adolescent Medicine practice in Ridgewood. Since that time, I have been screaming your message from the rooftops and helping many patients with issues ranging from anxiety and depression to PCOS to metabolic syndrome and the list goes on. I’m digging deep with my patients and no longer willing to be satisfied with matching the “pill to the ill”. My visits are in-depth (an initial visit is 2 hrs) and my work is truly rewarding. I just returned from the IFM foundational course last week and am energized to continue to provide my patients the care that they deserve and truly need. I have also been asked to be involved in a new center in Saddle River, NJ that will be providing care for patients with eating disorders and body image issues as this is one of my areas of expertise. The center will have medical care provided by me, nutrition, Reiki, therapy, meditation and yoga (including kundalini).
I have been following the development of your career over the past few years and have been in awe of all that you have accomplished. With that said, I am coming to you now not just as a patient but as a physician who truly believes in your message. Our patients deserve better than what they are getting at a typical 10-minute visit with their physician. By just spending time, listening, and investigating I am able to uncover so many things in my patients that have been missed. From the 10 year old that I diagnosed with Celiac disease after being seen by multiple physicians to the 17-year-old with a list of psychiatric diagnoses who actually had Hashimoto’s thyroiditis. I remember that when we spoke, you said that I should consider starting a practice as a 3-5 year journey. I’m a year in and it is very slowly growing. I truly want and need for this practice to succeed. I was hoping to be able to speak with you on a professional level to gain some insight as to how I can continue to grow my practice and knowledge base. Over the phone, at your office in Manhattan – whatever would be convenient for you. I hope you are willing to share your insight with me so that I can continue to provide my patients – especially the vulnerable teens with the care they deserve. Please let me know if you are willing.
It’s still really early, but I wanted to share the news that I’m pregnant (almost 6 weeks)! After two years of fertility treatments and multiple interventions, I got pregnant naturally after following your dietary protocol and taking the supplements you recommended ( in addition to a few others to help with egg quality) for 6 weeks. Amazing!
I just wanted to let you know that yesterday I went to my first formal Kundalini class here in NJ. I am lucky that such a class exists around here. It was great and just seemed really natural to me. I only recently have been able to support my weight/back in lotus position because of my bone weakness, so I was a bit nervous, but I did the class just fine. During the class, I was flooded with gratitude towards you. So, Thank you.
At our first session, I had mentioned to you that I was interested in doing hallucinogens to find that something that I felt was missing for so long. I am happy to report that I no longer think I need to go down the road of psychedelics. I swear this yoga is helping me in ways I have never thought possible.
I am getting so much better. I can’t even believe it! When I first saw you I was happy to settle with managing the symptoms of my “protracted withdrawal life.”
I think I might get even better than I ever planned or dreamed.
I started working with Dr. Brogan after my own exhaustive search for a practitioner who practiced integrative medicine and whose specialty was women’s health issues….not such an easy task! However shortly after walking into Dr. Brogan’s office, I knew she was worth the wait. She listened…she asked questions… and she made me feel as if I was not alone in my struggles. She attacked my case with diet and lifestyle changes, and for the first time, I understood why these changes were the real foundation to making any permanent changes in my health condition. Dr. Brogan consistently pulls new ideas out of her “medical hat” and treats each person as an individual rather than as a syndrome. Thanks to Dr. Brogan, I continue on my path to wellness.
Dr. Brogan has been the perfect doctor for me. She is very knowledgeable in her field of work, she is a great listener and has a sincere interest in the well-being of her patients. Under her care, I was able to reverse my autoimmune condition by addressing the underlying cause, without the use of any drugs or surgery. My condition has not resurfaced.Today, after the birth of my second daughter I still feel better than ever before, greatly thanks to her!
There is something happening to me that is taking me to places I’d never imagined and seeing life from an existential view instead of the day to day “white-knuckling” I used to experience all the time. I see myself being plugged into the universe and am beginning to hear and feel where I’m most needed. Coincidences are happening at a daily rate of meeting just the right person at just the right time. There is no fear for me in this. I’ve begun to not even be surprised when it happens because it happens so often. I listen, I observe, and I watch. I pause before I react. I added two times a week acupuncture and I did see a significant impact from that.
This is better than any drug anyone could take – it’s amazing.
Dr. Kelly Brogan inspired me to be more diligent with my meditation practice and to create an exercise routine. The result of a lifestyle that combines proper diet, exercises for the mind and the body and supplements right on the target, I got more disposition and a sense of contentment and happiness.
Sounds good. Yes, I’m realizing that every time I’ve felt anxiety, discomfort or come face to face with what is driving my anxiety is when I just went back on medication to make it go away. I trusted that the medication would take care of it, now my trust has/ is shifting to all of the work I’ve done with you. All of this fear of experiencing this again is popping up, which I thought I had addressed and I am trying to keep reminding myself that I’m in a better place with much, much better tools.
Thank you for the reassurance that this is not unexpected. A lot of fear I have is that something is really wrong with me. I’m working with Dede on this. Your reassurance and encouragement are beyond helpful.
Working with Dr. Brogan is like talking to a compassionate and empathetic friend, while at the same time getting quality care that does not compromise one’s vitality with quick fixes and cover-ups. The ability to listen carefully, thoroughly noting the client’s personal history in order to arrive at a holistic diagnosis and a tailored plan of care is a rare experience with doctors today. But it does speak to Dr. Brogan’s high standards of health care and her commitment to attend to the whole person. Rarer still, in spite of her impressive and multidisciplinary medical credentials, she always communicates in the simplest and clearest language. That is Dr. Brogan, who will leave you inspired, invigorated and ready to fight what is ailing you.
Once a patient of Kelly Brogan’s, it is difficult to return to conventional medical practitioners who rarely take the time to treat the whole patient. From the moment I stepped into Dr. Brogan’s office, I knew my experience under her care would be life-changing. Dr. Brogan is not just a brilliant healthcare practitioner, she treats her patients with respect and genuine care, taking as much time as necessary to truly understand a patient’s comprehensive medical history, including through meticulous testing and analysis. Dr. Brogan’s methodical approach is unique among even the best doctors, she looks beyond symptoms to the root causes of her patients’ illnesses, applies deep scientific knowledge to address the causes, and then develops a holistic customized treatment program for the patient. Dr. Brogan does not limit herself or her patients to conventional protocols; she is thoroughly invested in her patients’ best interests. My own experience over the past year under Dr. Brogan’s care has been nothing short of phenomenal and I credit her with my improvement in overall health. Dr. Brogan elevates the standard of medical care that I’ve come to expect from doctors. She is truly in a league of her own.
I didn’t think I would make it through my first pregnancy. I had debilitating OCD symptoms and feared any psychopharmacological treatments as the inherent risk they could have potentially caused my unborn child. Today, thanks to Dr. Brogan, I have a beautiful 3-year-old daughter, am symptom-free, and am considering a second child. Dr. Brogan is kind, thorough and scientific in her approach, and extremely devoted to the well being of her patients. Through her, I learned I will never need to take another SSRI again. I have learned that bringing the body back to a natural balanced state is a real way to reach optimal mental and physical health. I highly recommend her to any woman encountering difficulty through any phases of the reproductive cycle. Thank you, Dr. Brogan for changing my life. A large part of my symptoms not returning is that I have been gluten free (on
Dr. Brogan’s recommendation) for over 2 years now after It was discovered that I had Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis.
Because of Dr. Brogan I have been able to, after 15 years, come off of antidepressants. The reason for this is that Dr. Brogan truly looks at the whole person. By eliminating Grains and GMOs and implementing an ancestral diet, food rather than drugs, has become my medicine. Because of this work, I have been able to embark on a fearless journey of self-discovery!
Science hound, feminist, medical iconoclast, spiritual teacher, and fearless parent, Kelly Brogan embraces the quest for health and wholeness through deep study, relentless questioning, exceptional listening skills, and direct, personal experience. Never one to defer to authority or play by the rules, there are no sacred cows for this Ivy League doctor who takes no prisoners. Most remarkable, however, is Kelly’s ability to lead with her heart. She is a beacon of light, pointing the way towards the future of medicine.
Dr. Brogan is a key leader in the application of Functional Medicine to the resolution of the epidemic of depression. She has pioneered the redefinition what is termed “biological psychiatry” to a move away from drugs to the application of personalized lifestyle therapies that safely and effectively treat the cause and not the effect of depression.
Thanks to Dr. Brogan’s bold and pioneering efforts, the fundamental importance and utility of an integrated approach to health issues is being applied to mood disorders. Her work demonstrates how leading-edge science and attention dedicated to focusing on the whole person can be compassionately woven into therapeutic programs that prove far more successful than standard allopathic approaches alone.
I admire Dr. Kelly Brogan! She possesses a huge heart and a brilliant mind able to synthesize, distill and integrate massive amounts of information to benefit her patients and the many doctors who learn from her teachings. Dr. Brogan is a passionate leader in functional and integrative medicine who goes the extra mile by devoting her time and energy to make numerous health organizations better! All who have the pleasure of knowing Dr. Brogan are blessed by her wisdom, knowledge and truly caring heart.
Dr. Kelly Brogan is the most unique psychiatrist that I have met in ages. She is courageous, fearless, incredibly driven, committed to excellence in patient care, innovative, bold, brilliant, and she is clearly one of the new leaders in the field of psychiatric care and mental health at-large. I look forward to many more of her contributions towards both prevention and treatment.
I had the pleasure of working with Dr. Kelly Brogan to co-edit the first textbook written for physicians discussing evidence-based, integrative, therapies for the treatment of depression. She was an incredible resource and inspiration who offered her impressive expertise to the project. Dr. Brogan is a well-established physician in the integrative community, who is admired and respected by her colleagues. Dr. Brogan’s work and advocacy in the field of integrative medicine continues to help revolutionize the way we assess and treat mental illness.
Dr. Kelly Brogan has the rare distinction in her field of having successfully bridged the often insurmountable gaps that exist today between clinical experience, academic accomplishment, philosophical vision, and fearless activism. Most anyone who has taken the time to familiarize themselves with her work will find themselves both deeply challenged, enriched, but ultimately comforted in knowing that the future of medicine is already here, and its promise is extraordinary.
Dr. Brogan is an astute clinician, educator, and patient advocate who uses her expertise in functional medicine to focus on holistic psychiatry and women’s health. I think Dr. Brogan is changing the face of how psychiatry is practiced and I am very pleased to support her and spread the word.
Dr. Brogan is one of the leading lights in evolving medicine. Her passionate advocacy, fierce intellect, and fearless communication have made her a force in her profession, and I look forward to watching her positive impact and legacy grow over the coming years and decades.
Resetters: thought i’d capture the highlights of this program for me here before I forget just how important this reset was.
1. I came in to this program on a strong intuition, that Dr. Brogan had something to teach me that would change my life. I also came because I noticed that I developed a daily habit of wine drinking – as a way to cope with feelings of isolation and overwhelm….
Initially, I was terrified to let it go. But my commitment to my health luckily is always more powerful. I knew enough about my body to know that the reason I was using it, was because something deeper was missing. This course showed me that what I was missing – were key elements in nutrition that made me crave it in the 1st place. The intro of red meat (despite my immense resistance around it) was critical. I do feel massively different as a result.
My mind is clear, my moods steady, my energy very good, my BM’s-life changing. My commitment more resolved. And wine was super easy to give up once my body was nourished.
2. All of you are treasure troves on insight and knowledge. Like any good marathon, this would have been much harder to take on without all your wind at my back. .
3. Dr. Brogan has brought the art of bad-as*ery to a whole, new, level. I feel like I have a key to a kingdom. Thank you Kelly Brogan. You are a genius. .
4. I have a renewed and deeper gratitude for food. Healthy, organic, simple, fresh food. While I had that sense anyway, I revere the farmers I have access to – and bow in gratefulness at the abundance of choices, and farmers I have in this great city on NY. I feel so much emotion for the dedication these people have to food. I want to give them all my money (:.
5. I’ve learned to cherish food. Like the treasure it is. I love respecting it, composting it, cooking it, eating it, smelling it, savoring it, and sharing it. I cannot emphasize how having a refrigerator full of abundant and healthy choices makes me feel alive and happy.
6. I’ve busted through a lot of fear on this program and absolutely, without a shadow of a doubt, feel like I can move forward with clarity and confidence. .
Thank you so much everyone. I could not have done all of this without your support. .
There are quite a few firsts I’m having or had with this course, one of the biggest being my relationship to food. It’s so funny because if you knew how much I hated cooking, cleaning the kitchen, eating by myself, ugh, I could really go on and on with my food struggles (which I won’t) but now? I can hardly contain myself!
I’m on a food frenzy: buying/sourcing all kinds of food, and now my world has opened up a bit with my protein sources. I feel f*cking AMAZING. And yes, I still have work to do.
I just want to say THANK YOU everyone for being gracious, kind, and giving. It’s so nice to have a space in the world where like-minded people such as ourselves can find a bit of respite from all the craziness that is going on on our planet.
Ever onward, with love,
I just wanted to let you all know – on this final day – that I got the results of my bloodwork back. As I suspected – my thryoid function although normal was a bit low – but everything else returned to normal (I was insulin resistant and some other issues) and my cholesterol dropped 40 points! My doctor was amazed. He said, “it’s as if your body reset itself.” I said – THAT’S THE NAME OF THE PROGRAM! Thanks Kelly Brogan MD – Holistic Psychiatrist
Personally, embarking on, and moving through this reset has been nothing short of a beautiful surprise of discovery, mind, body and spirit . From my relationship with my husband, family, friends, approach towards infertility , my self worth and acceptance, and a celebration of being curious and happy in my own skin , I am in awe of what these 44 days have done in my life. I know without a shadow of doubt, I would not have been able to carry onward without all of you here.
Just like Dr. Brogan mentioned , this truly feels like the portal for a new way of life. I truly feel alive and well. Even though, I honestly didn’t think I started off so terribly, looking back now, in the state I am in today, I did! I was living in a constant state of anxiety and fear, feeling unworthy, codependent and like I would never truly feel well, gripped in a cycle of grief, anxiousness and unsettling insecurity . It was exhausting. Everything is different now, the veil of a cloudy, dark fog as lifted, and I know this is just beginning.
Who knew living without alcohol and coffee could actually be quite fun! Miracles I tell you. 😉 Thank you, Kelly Brogan, you are a hero to so many. And thank you to all the moderators for your kindness and devotion.
Love and blessings to you all!!
My son was 1.25 years old and I had been suffering form severe postpartum insomnia for 1 complete year.
After reaching a point of severity, I caved(even more) to the western model believing something was seriously wrong with me. I started to recount my entire life and question my sanity from as far back as I could remember making a case that yes I was “bipolar, crazy, innately flawed”.
I started VMR a couple days after thanksgiving and the changes that happened did NOT happen overnight.
Dr. Brogan held the torch, my fellow travelers here on this very page ushered me along the path. VMR was not about controlling food or having a magic bulletto fix me in 44 days it was my guide on how to remove all the noise and leave victimhood behind.
With the continued self-care on all accounts, my SELF is truly starting to trust my SELF. I am not afraid to say what I need or who I am. I am not afraid to manipulate a menu or say no to a friends glade air freshener. All of this can be done with kindness as I support the environment that best serves my highest self and ultimately my souls purpose on this planet. This work my loves, can go this deep.
This program is amazing.
The other night I was drinking red wine…and I was eating coconut crack bars and homemade VMR chocolate. I was trying to stuff my misery and keep my anxiety in check. It wasn’t working well. And something cracked. And when I woke up the next day I realized that the pattern ended.
It wasn’t a glorious feeling of “I don’t want to be a food addict anymore. I don’t even want honey, I just want to eat vegetables all day because I’m so happy!” It wasn’t that. It was that my ability to hold the pain had grown strong enough, my body and mind are clear enough and the misery had risen to the surface enough that the maple syrup or even the “act” of grabbing a sweet treat couldn’t cover up my pain anymore.
It is a miserable and horrible and dark place, but the pain that I have been successfully covering for my whole life with a cookie or a drink is coming out and I GET TO CHOOSE A LIFE I WANT. I am not locked in that prison of addiction or of pain – of a role that I never got to choose. That is what depression is for me. Smiling and nodding and being so disconnected, unable to hear my core self that is yelling NOOOOO!
The reset has given me this chance. To feel the “no” and stand in the darkness – and walk toward my light.
To all of you taperers…you are doing such an amazing job. Just hang on anyway you can. When I went off my meds, I was a grant writer and suddenly, I couldn’t put two words together. I thought I’d lost my mind – that I was crazy after all, just like they’d said – but through grace and reading A Mind Of Your Own I didn’t back down. I had to quit my job in an embarrassing “pick up my purse and leave” moment that makes me sick to my stomach even now.
Then I said, “what do I really want to do?” Now – a year and a half later – I have my own small business as an artist. And I have never been happier, immersed in the constantly unveiling experience of my authentic self.
Keep going. Cherish the experience because when you look back on it you will see what a blessing it is. 🙂
We are a light more than we know – I have been given the opportunity today to support my sister-in-law in her own gluten free journey – which was prompted by me sharing my own journey over Christmas. Turns out she is noticing a big difference as well, but it’s so much harder to go gluten free by yourself.
I am so grateful for this group – and finding myself able to support her in a way that I’ve never had the patience to support her before.
It feels like light just spreads out from my own journey – and I feel happiness in sharing my own journey and supporting others in their own journeys.
I am so grateful for VMR and the way my life has changed. And so grateful for the support of this group along the way. The peer support has eased the journey for all of us probably more than we’ve consciously realized. <3
I had my physical today for the first time in a year.
Before VMR: High blood pressure sometimes, on the high end of normal range others.
After VMR: Low blood pressure. (That’s what it was when I was a young adult so is likely my normal state.)
Pulse: A year ago I had an EKG ordered due to high heart rate. Now it’s normal.
Weight: Now healthy range for the first time in over 20 yrs – yay!
Tremors: Gone completely.
Hair Loss: Significantly decreased.
Mood and patience: Leveled out. I don’t have self doubts the same way. I enjoy individual moments. I’m optimistic when bad things happen and trust that they’ll work out for the best. I feel like “me” – and I love who I am. I believe I am naturally healthy and that any illness I may get will serve to make me healthier. This is really an entire paradigm shift for me – both in my experience, and in my beliefs.
Meds: Compared to a year ago, 2 meds are decreased (tapering one.) Another med is discontinued, and 3 supplements are stopped.
All in all, it feels like a lot of good news and I’m feeling really positive about my appointment. <3
Something so beautiful can come out of participating in this group…
In the beginning of joining this group I did not even consider myself part of it. I thought of myself as someone who did not use pharmaceuticals and that it was a ridiculous accident that I ended up taking them…I was just going to do my VMR and be on my way.
Something remarkable began to happen…Despite my inner resistance and fear, I would reach out.
Each time I shared, these amazing women and men that I DID NOT EVEN KNOW came in to rescue me, to reassure me, to guide me, to fully support my path. The loneliness, and shame would just dissolve away and this is really how I learned how to do this. How to move through each struggle…
It is up to us to show up however we feel. It almost feels like you are taking a risk by being vulnerable and saying the thing you hide from all other parts of your life. THAT IS WHERE THE MAGIC IS THOUGH. TRULY. And it bleeds into your life as well. You start to change. It’s a place to practice opening your heart.
Sitting in deep gratitude for this group. <3
This VMR works! 33 days in & feeling sensational! Sleeping better, lost a few kilos, less irritable, performing better at work, and a nicer person to be around!
I’m so thankful for Dr Brogan and this program. It definitely counteracts the numbing of our lives due to medication, too much electronics, addictions, distractions, and being constantly bombarded with ads trying to sell something (even when pumping gas!), etc. I’m not buying into it anymore. I choose to be present and feel what I feel and create a life I love. I am emerging stronger every day and am so thankful. Love to everyone on the journey. <3
I always knew I wasn’t crazy even though I had countless doctors over the years tell me I was. My truth kept rejecting their words and today I have risen into my power because I chose not to accept their thoughts about me.
I came completely off of the drugs they told me I would need for life. Their thoughts about me and who I am were irrelevant at my deepest level.
What thoughts about yourself from you or others need to be thrown out? There’s no time for that BS when your working your life’s mission and acknowledging them even a bit will take you off course.
#awakening #smallchangesbigshifts #lifespurpose #thisisyourtime
That is what it took for me to sleep last night. Zero. Zerrrrro.
This is the first time since November 1st 2015. 2 years 5 months.
879 entire days! Eight.Hundred.Sevvvventy.Nine.
Healing is real and within reach. I wanted it so bad that I stayed strategically on course NO MATTER WHAT came up in my life.
This is available to alllll of you.
I am still healing. Actively participating in my own healing.
SELF LOVE. DEVOTION.
I first joined in hopes of it getting rid of my brain fog. As a long shot I thought it might allow me to taper off my anti-anxiety med. I never in a million years imagined that I would taper off my mood stabilizer as well.
But when I went all-in with VMR, my body changed. And when my body changed, my mind changed. My thought patterns changed. My feelings changed. My self confidence changed. My PMS went from days of raging anger and anxiety and frustration to my period showing up without a sign. My actual hormones changed because of VMR.
I know it doesn’t work that way for everyone, but I would say give the program a chance before taking meds. Meds are numbing and might make you think you feel better, but they also take the nuances and depth of life away. And they are extremely hard to get off of and there is no easily found medical support for getting off meds.
Best of luck to you, and please stick with the program. It has so much power that you won’t see until you get close to the finish line and start to look back at how far you’ve come.
Living in denial is such a powerful thing and I did it for much of my adult life. Life was just.so.hard. Every single day was a brutal struggle even though externally I had an amazing life. I bought into what others thought of me, including the hordes of doctors who told me I was “mentally ill,” who put me on drugs I was deathly allergic to. I bought into the tape In my head that I wasn’t good enough. I was shackled.
It was only by coming to the end of my life that my new one opened up for me and it was only by facing the worst pain and demons I have ever encountered that I broke free to be me. I didn’t really know I was ever imprisoned so badly until I was free– but I can look back now and see the chains that bound me for so long.
I can’t say that anyone who is truly imprisoned in their minds has the awareness that they really are- that’s called denial, which is strong, but I can say that all along there was this tiny voice inside of me that kept saying “Life shouldn’t be this hard. ”
I kept listening to that voice as it got louder and louder and kept following it to reach the Light, even though at first I didn’t see it at all. I just kept reaching for the Light. Go to the Light. Trust it is there waiting for you to bask in its glow.
#smallchangesbigshifts #psychdrugskill #awakening #lifespurpose #faith #suicideawareness
Today I completed the VMR program! I’m really proud of myself for having stuck with it and not given up partway through, as I have with things like the Whole 30. The shifts in me happened so subtly that I didn’t notice them at first, but at about the two week mark I had the sudden realization that I felt hopeful and excited about my future for the first time in longer than I can remember.
It was incredible.
My energy is up, my IBS has gone, I’m sleeping better, and, most incredibly to me, I’m able to push through anxiety and OCD symptoms in a way I’ve never been able to do. I still feel them sometimes, but rather than be paralyzed, I’m able to acknowledge what they are and make the choice to keep going.
This group has been amazing, thank you to everyone who has supported me and for allowing me to support them! I’m excited to continue to be a part of this group as I deepen my healing journey.
I am feeling victorious.. l saw the doctor who is helping me with my taper yesterday. She decreased the epilum l am taking. This would NEVER have happened without the Vital Mind Reset Program. I really know now that l am healing. One of my friends/workmates told me on Friday that she has noticed my growth over the last 12 months. She has been through a similar healing. THANK YOU Kelly Brogan. 💗
I just want to share a major victory I had today. I do this in the hope that someone will take heart and know that fighting for yourself is never a straight path, but that the twists and turns can serve to make us stronger.
I sang in public tonight. I haven’t done that in 6 years. 4 years ago when I was diagnosed with MDD and severe anxiety, I had trouble even going out in public. I would have panic attacks at church and have to leave. Medication really only increased my sense of dread. Singing is one of my passions, and for years I felt robbed of my ability to use that gift.
Today as it was my turn to go up to the mic, I heard all the familiar voices. The anxiety loomed, the negative thoughts said that hundreds of people would see me fail or that they would all laugh. But I found a strength that has been dormant in me for 4 years. And I did it. I prayed that my words would be a beacon for someone who needed to hear that they matter. I am so grateful to this program and to Dr. Kelly Brogan for giving me a path back home to my true self. She loves to sing, and she’s not going to stop.
VMR tribe… today I woke up for the first time in 9 years and did not take Zoloft! It’s been a multi-year taper from 150mg all the way down to 1mg for the last month. I’m feeling liberated and still a little nervous. But I know that my body and mind are ready. Please send your positive energy my way as I get through the last stage of withdraw and enter this whole new world! Thank you to this amazing group for the courage to keep going through the rough days and to the awesome Amarjot Donovan for the incredible support the past few weeks. Best decision to get a VMR health coach, friends do it!
I’ve been doing this program 18 months now. This post is for everyone struggling, waiting, wondering how long will it take? Will I ever get better? How could I ever be different? 18 months ago I was crippled with full body pain and dark deep depression that kept me a prisoner in my house for most of 7 years. I was 37 when it hit, and pregnant with my third child. In an unhappy marriage, unfulfilling life of wife , mother, homemaker. Trying to be everything positive and right.
I spent 7 years in tortuous hell. Unbearable physical Pain, shame, guilt, anger, fear, unworthiness swirling around like a black hole devouring all in its path. Unable to function and rarely could even walk.
I’ve been dismantling all that for 18 months now, and this week , I tipped the scales in my favor. I’ve been waking up with joy, Love in my heart, and peace. I forgive myself freely, and have permission to be joyful. I’ve recognized I returned to my kids, and I no longer punish myself.
I know now I was ready to embark on my journey. I’m still on it, and will be my whole life. I now know there is no destination. I don’t need to be anywhere but where I am that day. I’m sharing my heart, and my gratitude. Don’t give up on yourself. Keep trucking, keep forging. All who seek will find.. just keep going. We are all on this together even though it’s different for us all. I want each of you reading this to know, I was hopeless. I was lost forever in darkness. BUT, I wasn’t. Neither are you. You only think you are.
Ok…today is the 120th day of NO DRUGS, psychiatric or otherwise, after well over 20 years! Yes, that’s right…4 months! I’m on Day 26 of VMR and Day 11 of the diet. I woke up for the first time in I truly can’t remember when and felt true JOY! I can hardly believe it…true JOY!
For all those struggling, it really is possible…4 months ago I was feeling sheer terror and could only sit in a chair, completely still with my eyes closed.
I’ll write more later, but this CAN be done even when no doctor felt that it could! Hang in troops! We ARE so worth it!!!
I had a good week, not just a good day. My nervous system is strengthening, I can feel it. I felt a lot of stress but I was able to hold it. I feel like I’m opening up to this process. I’m accepting myself as I am right now, giving myself what I need. Big week for me! One foot in front of the other.
Major breakthrough for me. I’m in the second half of my cycle and I’m owning it. There have been lots of ups and downs and self hate, feelings of insecurity, jealousy and discontentment but I’m feeling into it all. It’s not affecting me as much. I’ve had a couple of moments I’m not proud when I’ve taken it out in my family but it’s not been as constant or severe. I’ve been able to separate myself from the strong emotions most of the time and make sure I’ve been gentle with myself. I’ve have a feeling that I’ve been through the worst of it and that I’ve got this. I’ve also realised that the chronic fatigue I’ve been experiencing is a signal to go & lie down and explore what’s coming up for me. In acknowledging it it seems to have dissipated. Big, big wins. I’m moving in the right direction, socialising with a little more confidence and feeling more proactive, doing more and feeling like I could be capable of doing some study.
Happy day 44 and congrats to everyone!…
I didn’t initially start this for weight loss, but i’ve been doing VMR since October and have lost 30 lbs.(which is super awesome because i was super over-weight and my body was in pain a lot) i feel like one of my biggest shifts/gifts doing this course has been a gigantic increase in the awareness of how important PATIENCE is. i feel through VMR,i was given the gift of awareness in a way that i haven’t experienced before in my healing journey.I feel a sense of knowing that each “symptom” i have is actually a message..it’s up to me to be present to learn from it. i’ve always been so impatient for the pain and suffering to just GO AWAY, that i haven’t honored the potential messages INSIDE the pain. For the very first time, i feel ready to do this. To actuallylisten without judgement ,with curiosity and patience. i’m also aware that even in just listening , the symptoms may go away…because maybe all they needed was to be truly heard, and not feared…or maybe there IS an actual tangible lesson.Either way-i’m all ears and i’m excited for my future in a way that i’ve never been.
Friday win- I’m at the tail end of my lexapro taper and experiencing increased body anxiety/ I call this active nervous system recalibration, as I don’t like the words “panic attack” bc I’ve realize that the term is part of an old mindset of something “out of control that Is happening TO me” rather than what is actually happening, my brain/body working hard to find equilibrium. SO- last night I felt the panic coming on- it usually starts as a sensation in my stomach and then travels to arms, legs and goes on from there with fearful thoughts and panic- I was making dinner at the time and instead of allowing myself to go along with the thoughts, or call my husband , or try to fight through it and continue cooking, I went to the mirror and looked at myself and literally spoke to my inner child. I reassured her and cried with her and told her that she was safe and healing over and over. Then I laid down and listened to some binaural while breathing through it.
I know well that Healing can feel hard and frustrating and even near impossible sometimes, especially when we are “doing all of the right things” and still feel like we have hit a wall and might be ‘the exception to the rule’. But it just isn’t true. It’s possible for and available to every single one of us, always. and in moments where we might forget this, we have our warrior tribe here to give us the reminders and reflecting that we need. love and gratitude ❤🙏
I’ve come to the realization that this dark night of the soul is literally what I am here for. Although I’d never recommend rapid tapering off high doses of psych meds, there is just no other explanation for why this happened. I was clueless and knew very little, and now I know way too much. I was ignorant of the truth and now I’ve been exposed to all of it.
Through pain, we somehow find our deepest truths. We can kick and scream all we want but if it’s what our soul is yearning for in order to awaken, we will put ourselves into that situation and survive it. Nothing is random.
And as for the suicide conversation – I love that I can now say, there is meaning behind these feelings. When I was on meds and sometimes used to feel suicidal, I had no explanation to my suffering. According to the doctor, his only answer was to up the dose or change the med. A doctor. A supposed healer. A human being with a mission to help others had nothing to offer me besides meaningless chemicals.
And now I’ve found a new doctor – one who is telling us – here is a guide book but then look inside yourself and you will find all the answers. There is meaning to the suffering – psych meds induced, withdrawal induced, or just plain growing pains of the soul induced.
I ran a 10k on Friday despite still being in the throes of deep dark withdrawal. My 14 yr old who I ran with was inspired by me to change his diet last year and lost a whole lot of weight and started running also. We both got much healthier due to Dr. brogans wisdom and our fierce determination to stick with it. My brain is now still healing and I’m still dealing with all types of symptoms ranging from akithisia to suicidal ideation, with windows of light that come and go, keeping me on track. Running on Friday was a big win for me because it represented my continuing on this marathon I chose to be part of. Today I cried again for much of the day. The waves come and go but I cannot, will not give up.